Changes

I was unloading the dishwasher a bit ago and thought again that not all of the dishes are completely dry in spite of the "dry" function being turned on.  In the past I was have asked Donny to figure this out.  Now I try to deal with this sort of thing myself.  The dishes have not been getting totally dry for more than a month now.  I think about this while I hand dry several things before putting them away, but when the task is done the thought is gone.  Until the next time I unload the dishwasher!

I tell myself this is because finding the cause and fixing it are "low on my list."  Taking care of myself, my animals and my house as best I can takes a lot.  I will get to the low things on the list.  Someday.

Late last week I was thinking about organizing my life so I will be less overwhelmed.  I decided that wading through some of the paperwork that is piling up should be part of my weekend.  Oh, be still my beating heart!  Such exciting weekend plans!  Actually, it was good.  I got through a couple of major piles and it felt good to know where some things were and to have a feeling of peace instead of being overwhelmed.

I am still working on my "new normal."  Little by little, things become easier and other things fall into place.  I relish those times.  I am capable.  I have been single before and took care of myself quite well.  This is just different.  I am doing what Donny and I did together.  Alone.  Without Donny.

As with other posts, the idea I sat down to write about morphed into something other than I had imagined.  I sat down with the idea of things that were different.  What I finish with is the thought of being gentler with myself.  All things in good time.  I am moving forward.  No need to think less of myself.  Gentler right?  So, under the heading of Changes I will make a note to be kinder to myself. I saw this on Facebook recently...

So far you've survived 100% of your worst days.  You're doing great.

Yup, I have survived and I will keep surviving until I feel like I'm doing great.

Thank you,
The Hopeful Romantic