I have been writing to Donny since a couple of days after I lost him. I write about whatever is on my mind at the time. The following is from today's letter.
I have thought so many times since you died that I need to write down all the things you told me. Not things like how to change the filter on the ice maker (I still remember how to do that!), but the sweet moments. So I will pause in the middle of this letter to you to reminisce.
I remember –
- I told you that I was crazy about you and you told me you were mad about me. (Every woman should be loved like that)
- You told me that falling in love with me was an endless spiral. (See? Such a romantic guy!!1)
- Dancing in the kitchen while Alabama played on your laptop. (One of “our” songs.)
- You holding my hand wherever we went. I hope I told you how much that meant.
Dang! There are so many more things I wanted to record here, but now I am drawing a blank. I started this letter more than an hour ago and I was sure I could fill a page or two without even trying. But then I took a break for the bathroom. Another to let Thea (our dog) out…and then back in! And so on and so forth.
Losing my husband has been the hardest thing ever. But, there are still sweet times and I wanted you to know that this was one of those.
Thank you for "listening".
The Hopeful Romantic