|My toes in the sand...ah, happiness!|
Or finding me, I am not sure which is more applicable. I have been an empty-nester for a bit more than a year and am just coming to terms with all that means.
I have less people who rely on me daily for food. I have less messes to clean up. I have less demands on my time.
Sounds pretty good, right?! I am just getting to the stage where I could agree with that notion. I spent so many years taking care of others that now I struggle to take care of me. I have so many choices of what to do that I sometimes feel overwhelmed. What to do first?
I can be very decisive, but when it comes to my free time lately I have felt challenged. There is no set schedule so I can sew, cook, read a book, play a game of backgammon online, watch TV, call a friend, etc. You get the idea.
Sometimes I get to the end of the day and think I wasted my time. Frittered it doing one thing when so many other things called for my time. You've done that, right?
Well, no more! I am not being very nice to myself always feeling like I could spend my time more productively. I want what most people want...to not have regrets. To not get to the end of my life and feel like I left something undone.
So I embark on this new chapter. I will allow myself to do what makes me happy. I will not feel guilty, well not as much anyway. I will...that's it, I will!
I hope that you will, too!
The Hopeful Romantic