Thursday, September 26, 2013

Finding My Way

My toes in the sand...ah, happiness!
Or finding me, I am not sure which is more applicable.  I have been an empty-nester for a bit more than a year and am just coming to terms with all that means.

I have less people who rely on me daily for food.  I have less messes to clean up.  I have less demands on my time.
Sounds pretty good, right?!  I am just getting to the stage where I could agree with that notion.  I spent so many years taking care of others that now I struggle to take care of me.  I have so many choices of what to do that I sometimes feel overwhelmed.  What to do first?
I can be very decisive, but when it comes to my free time lately I have felt challenged.  There is no set schedule so I can sew, cook, read a book, play a game of backgammon online, watch TV, call a friend, etc.  You get the idea.
Sometimes I get to the end of the day and think I wasted my time.  Frittered it doing one thing when so many other things called for my time.  You've done that, right?
Well, no more!  I am not being very nice to myself always feeling like I could spend my time more productively.  I want what most people not have regrets.  To not get to the end of my life and feel like I left something undone.
So I embark on this new chapter.  I will allow myself to do what makes me happy.  I will not feel guilty, well not as much anyway.  I will...that's it, I will!
I hope that you will, too!
The Hopeful Romantic

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